Dusting and Cleaning

Today was my D&C. Paul and I went early this morning to the nearby surgery center. We were home by 9am. Physically, I feel really good, considering! No pain, no cramping, very little bleeding. Emotionally, I'm ok. I have moments of sadness, but they don't take over my day. They can't--Jackson needs me and I don't want to deprive him of one second of his mommy. That wouldn't be fair to him, and right now, I'm functioning as a human being because of and for HIM.

We're ok. Our plan is to try again when we're able to (thankfully, we don't have to wait long!). We may try to do something with our frozen nubbin, in part to avoid paying rent on him for another year. We may try fertility drugs. I'm not sure what we'll do, but we will do something. I want, more than anything, for Jackson to be a big brother.

Now it's time for life to get back to "normal." Our sense of normal is questionable these days, especially in light of what's happening with Steve and his cancer. He's going through another round of chemo now but will be released from Loyola tomorrow, then he'll be tested sometime in the next few weeks to determine how well the chemo's working for him. He's fighting as hard as he can, so hopefully he'll win!!

Jackson will be 10 months old this weekend. I can't believe how fast this time has gone. His first birthday is right around the corner, and I've already been thinking of what to do! We're going to have his party at Monastero's (since we can't fit our whole families together in our house at one time). I'm excited for him!! I have my camera and video camera ready and waiting!!

Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. More soon...